So far so good

So today will be shot number 4! Friday night I sat there in my bathroom for 15 minutes trying to tell myself all was well and it wasn't going to hurt. But this time this shot meant way more than just the pain attached to it. I had to tell myself that God is in control and I cant control this. All I could sit there and think about was if I was going to screw it up somehow. I think I checked the dial 15 times to make sure I had the right dose set and I did. Surprisingly it didn't hurt well the needle that is, but the actual medicine did burn. I have to give it to myself the same time every night so I chose 10:30 that way I wouldn't have to hurry home if we were out and about doing something fun and that is a good time that even if we were out we should be getting home by then any way so Aiden can be in bed. However the other night Todd and I wanted to go see a movie and it didn't start until 10:10 and that meant I was going to have to take all my stuff with me and give myself the shot at the movies. That didn't sound like fun and I was really scared to mess the medication up due to the fact that it has to be refrigerated. I have ice packs for it but when you are talking that much money its best to error on the side of caution. But overall the shots are going rather well. I know I am doing something right because I am having a bit of an allergic reaction to the meds. They made me stop taking all of my allergy meds and I think that is why I am struggling so hard with this. They said a little itching at the site of injection is normal but I feel like I have the chicken pox. I itch everywhere. All over my legs and backs and arms. So thankfully my doctor let me take a Zyrtec today to help get it under control. I am going to see how long I can go without taking any more allergy meds so I just hope and pray this one will stick with me for awhile!! After all this is said and I done I will be able to say I overcame so much! I am so thankful for so many wonderful things and one day I will be able to look back on this journey and say it just had to happen to get me to where I belong!