Oops...

We have done a million things today and I totally didn't start my watch clock at 9 tonight like I usually do. We had a snow cone and then let Aiden go down to the golf course to putt around and then when we got back he needed a shower and I had to get him ready for bed. By the time I finally got him done with showering, medicine, pottying, brushing teeth, kisses, hugs, tucking him in, more kisses and hugs it was after 10. I looked at the clock but I never thought oh its almost time for my shot. It was 10:58 when I decided I should start getting ready for bed since Todd is still watching a movie. I thought I will go ahead and get ready for bed that way when he is ready I will be completely ready. That is when I went "OH CRAP!!!!" I had forgot to stop at 10:30 and give myself my shot. I ran and got my stuff and was done by 11:02. I didn't have time to stop and think about this one!!! I hope I didn't screw things up! Now I am really nervous cause Todd and I were talking tonight about how I am sad because we aren't going to take a big vacation like we had planned to do with our friends because of this. We need to save our money to put towards these shots. I totally agree with that its just that it makes me sad. I was so looking forward to heading back to Mexico and laying on the beach sipping on fun drinks and enjoying some much needed relaxation with my hubby and some of our best friends. We had so much fun last time and I know this time would be even better. Plus I am about to turn 30 (not like I have really had the time to let that milestone bother me) and I wanted to do something big and fun. But with these shots we cant. I am hopeful this first round will take so that we don't have to do another month but I also know that if this round does take we wont be able to take a vacation next year because we will have a small baby but if it doesn't take then we will have to go for round two and that will mean we have to save even more money meaning that next year wont look possible either. It will totally be worth it to not take a vacation to have a baby I just wish we could do both!!!! We also started talking about our decision to only do two rounds of shots and that's it. We have decided we wont do invitro. So now I am really starting to feel the pressure. But that is the sad thing is that there is nothing I can do except I guess to remember to take my shots on time!!!! We will look into adoption but we haven't decided if we will agree to go ahead with the process. Blah....it really stinks having to deal with this but I know my God is bigger than me or my problems and He has a plan for us.